i am a little shy at first but when i get to know people then i start to come out of my shell.

Sometimes very hard to make conversation due to my shyness.

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This is the real me!I don't put on "airs"for anyone!I used to but don't anymore.I actually talk a little "raunchier"at home then when I'm talking here.I value friendship immensely and have been
dissapointed in people; many times.I will back my friends 100%;
and expect the same in return.I have a 118lb.dog(Black Lab,Rotty
mix)11yrs. old,a black kitten(approx.6mo.old),A wife,2 daughters,
4 grandchildren,and one mother(89)left alive.2 cars,1 motorcycle,
1 riding lawnmower and 1 snowblower.I'm sure that I'm forgetting
something.Just ask.I have no secrets.Everyone who knows me;
knows that I'm outspoken!I have been told that sometimes;I should keep my opinions to myself.That wouldn't be me! Irish
P.S.I also had a plow vehicle('79Blazer)that I sold last week!

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Hell, RG, I even have a hard time typing them!! LOL! Guess it has a lot to do with upbringing ("nice girls" simply didn't use such words!)...just not comfortable using them myself but have no problem reading/hearing them. Does that make sense?

Othewise, I'd have to say that there a lot of different "ME"s. Maybe the one I show here is closer to the "real" me than I show anyone in real life, more like the "me" I used to be before getting married and having children. Sometimes I miss that "me" ;(,. And other times I'd rather be the "nice" mother, daughter-in-law, sister-in-law, that I show most of the rest of the world.

Does anyone understand what I'm trying to say??

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Sugarsprinkles---I understand what you're trying to say!What you are trying to say is that there are some people that you want
to think of you as the way that you want them to think of you!I
did that for years.I finally realised that the people that you care about will think good of you anyway;if they know that you are a good person.On another note;nice girls are used to that language
if they hear their father and his motorcycle buddies use it all of the
time.Seriously;my wife and daughters were never treated with more respect and better protected then when they were around!
Irish

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Makes perfect sense to me... I'd have to say that I'm pretty much the same way. Heck, in real life I don't even swear --- the word 'heck' being a prime example of my mild-mannered language. As for 'pussy', 'cunt', and so on, I think it depends a lot on the context for me. Hearing one of 'those words' from most of my friends in real life would probably send me into shock, whereas in an openly sexual setting like Pixies' they seem very natural... (*giggling to myself* --- Just think, if me hearing my friends say 'pussy' would be cause for shock, what would happen if one of them saw the pics I've posted here? )


Once again, you've made perfect sense. To me, the person I am here is as real and as much 'me' as the person you'd get to know if you met me in real life, but they are (at times) very very very different... On here (in the chat room even more than the forums, sometimes), I flirt, tease, engage in all kinds of sexual innuendo and banter --- none of which I do in real life with anyone but my boyfriend, and even with him, it's a little more muted... In real life, as I've mentioned elsewhere, I've struggled with social anxiety disorders, and I'm still rather easily embarrassed. I'm almost obsessive at times with obeying rules, not because I'm afraid of punishment per se, but because I'm afraid of looking foolish when caught. Anyway, that's a long-winded way of saying that I'm pretty straight-laced in real life, far more so than here...

The flirtatious, sexual me that you know here is no less real for all of that. Playing here has given me a chance to reinvent my persona and shed a lot of the inhibitions that I've grown up with, and also (through the marvellous and supportive feedback I've received) to become a lot more confident in my body and in my sexuality. The truly wonderful thing, for me, is that the confidence and freedom that I've gained here are actually, slowly but surely, spilling over into my real life, so that I'm gradually becoming more like the person I really want to be.

I think, though, that there have been a lot of similarities between my personas all along, in areas that have more to do with humanity than with sexuality. I'd like to think that I can display some empathy, some intelligence, and some humour regardless of where I am. The core of me stays the same throughout.

--- sweetstuff

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Sadora and SFC, if I may borrow the soap box to reiterate?

I'm a camp counselor I get 11 children every two weeks that are 8-11 years old, I also babysit twin 3.5 y/o boys. I have a boyfriend, Souls, whom I love deeply and a girlfriend with whom I am moving into a house with. I breed, train, and show dogs, I even have my own kennel with some nice quality show dogs and pets I have cows, cats, ferrets, cats, dogs, cats, used to have horses, did I mention the cats? oh and fish! I work every day and I dont always get paid, today I helped my g/f sand the floors in our house.... tomorrow we might go do rescue work at the pound, I am a volunteer with a Search and Rescue group, and a student and all this at 18.... goddess only knows where I'll be when I'm 25.

I think this soap box needs to be retired I think I warped the boards.... shall I sand it while I have the orbital out?

Kyttn

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Kyttn---I had to tell you this because you said that you bred dogs!
It might not strike you that funny but you had to know what the
guys were like that I hung out with.In the late '60s-early'70s;I worked at Sikorsky Aircraft.One of the guys that we worked with;
bred Samoyed(sp)dogs on the side.I'm not sure of the spelling;
but they're those medium-sized white dogs.None of the guys especially liked him.They didn't dislike him but he was just one of those guys that you tolerated.One day he(mistakenly)told everyone;that his male dog had no attraction to a customers female dog.He played with the male dogs penis(partially masturbated)the dog;to get him in the mood.For years;no one
ever;let him forget that.They would always throw it in his face;
about how he jerked off dogs.That was approx.30 yrs ago;in Conn.;and it still is in my mind. Irish

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I very rarely use words like cunt in speech. Pussy is one I use but in very selective company. Mostly to do with politeness and that I am around children a lot.

In Pixies I express myself more fully as it is a place where openess is the norm and it is a very healthy place in my opinion. people are actually accepting of differences and allow opposing views to be expressed without tearing another apart. If the rest of the world was like here then it would be a much safer and happier place.

I am always real online I hate falseness and I use a nic because it is humourous not because I am seeking to hide behind it.

ummmmm who wants the soapbox next?? LOL

That may be so, but after all these years, why spoil their illusions? Also I don't think my sons really WANT to know that their mother is STILL interested in sex. They probably think I'm too old.



I never said I wasn't "used" to that language. I just never got accustomed to using it myself. I can swear plenty, but there are just some words I never have used...they just sound "funny" coming out of my mouth to me. Have no problem whatsoever with anyone else using them. But since I've been at Pixies I am loosening up.....or trying to at least.

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