jennaflower.......Advice is easily given but hard to take at times. I know from experience the mind set you have been in. I think Madame Lilith is right in that you seem to have come full circle. It seems your time is coming and you can see it but you are reluctant to seize it. Most women in your position are as unselfish as you and seem to think that treating themselves to a "good life" at this time in their childs life would be a selfish move and make them seem unfit, somehow. Nothing could be further from the truth. I see it this way........If you have a wonderful time in your life, you can have nothing but good vibes and happy times to pass along to your child. If you sit and deprive yourself of a happier time it will eventually rub off on the little one as they are more aware than we give them credit, and pick up on our emotions with actions of their own. I am not saying this as a scare tactic but I think you can agree that a child lives what he/she learns at home. How can anything you do to better your mental state and self esteem hurt the well being of your son? Just a little advice and something to think about for "my sister from a different mister"! Go on.....be happy.......you deserve it.....I promise you do!

*hugs*
Mrs. Lix

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