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Originally posted by Sugarsprinkles
Hell, RG, I even have a hard time typing them!! LOL! Guess it has a lot to do with upbringing ("nice girls" simply didn't use such words!)...just not comfortable using them myself but have no problem reading/hearing them. Does that make sense?
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Makes perfect sense to me... I'd have to say that I'm pretty much the same way. Heck, in real life I don't even swear --- the word 'heck' being a prime example of my mild-mannered language. As for 'pussy', 'cunt', and so on, I think it depends a lot on the context for me. Hearing one of 'those words' from most of my friends in real life would probably send me into shock, whereas in an openly sexual setting like Pixies' they seem very natural... (*giggling to myself* --- Just think, if me hearing my friends
say 'pussy' would be cause for shock, what would happen if one of them saw the pics I've posted here?
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Otherwise, I'd have to say that there a lot of different "ME"s. Maybe the one I show here is closer to the "real" me than I show anyone in real life, more like the "me" I used to be before getting married and having children. Sometimes I miss that "me" ;(,. And other times I'd rather be the "nice" mother, daughter-in-law, sister-in-law, that I show most of the rest of the world.
Does anyone understand what I'm trying to say??
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Once again, you've made perfect sense. To me, the person I am here is as real and as much 'me' as the person you'd get to know if you met me in real life, but they are (at times) very very
very different... On here (in the chat room even more than the forums, sometimes), I flirt, tease, engage in all kinds of sexual innuendo and banter ---
none of which I do in real life with anyone but my boyfriend, and even with him, it's a little more muted... In real life, as I've mentioned elsewhere, I've struggled with social anxiety disorders, and I'm still rather easily embarrassed. I'm almost obsessive at times with obeying rules, not because I'm afraid of punishment per se, but because I'm afraid of looking foolish when caught. Anyway, that's a long-winded way of saying that I'm pretty straight-laced in real life, far more so than here...
The flirtatious, sexual me that you know here is no less real for all of that. Playing here has given me a chance to reinvent my persona and shed a lot of the inhibitions that I've grown up with, and also (through the marvellous and supportive feedback I've received) to become a
lot more confident in my body and in my sexuality. The truly wonderful thing, for me, is that the confidence and freedom that I've gained here are actually, slowly but surely, spilling over into my real life, so that I'm gradually becoming more like the person I really want to be.
I think, though, that there have been a lot of similarities between my personas all along, in areas that have more to do with humanity than with sexuality. I'd like to think that I can display some empathy, some intelligence, and some humour regardless of where I am. The core of me stays the same throughout.
--- sweetstuff