I can see, through the inocent eyes of a 10y/o, how you would feel this way CP. Especially since it sounds as though you and your father were/are close (daddy's little girl, perhaps), and it all sounds natural to me!

I'm having a little trouble believing that a 15y/o was mentioned in a Playboy magazine in a sexual content.....unless things are different with Playboy in China. Hugh Hefner is many things....but NOT a child pornographer...as far as I know! Maybe you misread that part........but none the less.......I can imagine your surprise and confusion.

Now that you are older.....you can see how a male of your father's age at the time (39) would have enjoyed the art of a woman's body......right? So....no harm....no foul, I say!

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