>I would like to be with someone who loved me...<

That one is FANTASTIC if you can really and truly get it to happen. It took me awhile, but I actually got someone who really and absolutely loves me.

Now... from day to day, it's not the most *exciting* thing in the world. It's comfortable and a little "boring" actually. The love is always there, and is completely real. The cuddling is very nice. I don't mind though. I can find others and other things, including myself, to keep me sexually stimulated adequately. I've got plenty of memories of some very erotic activities too. And, who knows? That person who is there and loves you for years and years might surprise you, as mine surprised me the day before yesterday, and almost out of the blue gave me about the best time in bed I've ever had. See the Erotic Story posted in the thread "Anal Pleasures" for details.