You could always get acquainted with like minded folks in personal ads. A webcam too could provide an audience without the authorities butting in. As for the want to's, hell ask about it. Communication is the mainstay in any relationship. Hmmm wish I had a quarted for every time I've seen that in these pages. Good Luck to Ya!

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As to marriage or celibacy, let a man take which course he will. He will be sure to repent - Socrates

Love is not looking in each other's eyes, but looking together in the same direction - Antoine De Saint-Exupery